By Megan Rolfe
Sometimes it feels like we are stuck and there is no way out.
I’ve been thinking about this a lot due to…oh, you know, current circumstances. Where I live, there has been a lot of deep breathing and holding my palm to my heart and the reclassification of Oreos as an “essential pantry item.” Maybe you too have been taking deep breaths and eating a lot of Oreos.
I wrote a whole draft of this post the first week of March, and it was all about how we often do things ahead of time that we really don’t need to. I just re-read it and thought, “who the hell is this person?”
First-week-of-March self was proactive and spunky and a go-getter, kinda annoying but sweet in her now unfathomable ability to envision and plan two years into the future. Third-week-of-May self is more like, “Hey, let’s just tackle the next two hours and see where things are, shall we?”
First-week-of-March self was an over-functioning do-er who knew she needed to chill out and do a little less.
Third-week-of-May self isn’t so sure about what to do anymore.
I know you may feel stuck and hopeless, because sometimes I feel stuck and hopeless, even though I “know” I’m supposed to be grateful and lean into this moment and seize this opportunity to listen to the universe and nature is healing, etc. Like you, I vacillate between okayness and not-at-all-okayness, pain at my suffering and guilt at my relative lack of suffering, heartiness by what I can offer and defeat by all that I cannot, joy at the smallest, simplest delights and grief at the awful, yawning, terrifying scale of it all.
Some days all the work is about trying to live just beside the despair and shame and guilt and horror, not in it. We are trying the best we can with the tools we have, and no matter how resourced we are, sometimes we might still feel stuck.
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